3rd shot 9:55pm

I just gave myself my 3rd shot.This week I have come to accept and I feel a lot better about doing this injection. Last week I vented about me not liking the fact that I have to poke myself with needles now that I am sober. I think that helped. I am very tired from the days activities. I was able to make it to the hockey game, take in my meeting and now inject myself. I'm glad I am trying to do my shot at night, then I will sleep through a lot or some of the side effects. I better go eat something so there is something in my stomach. Its supposed to help out if I do an injection on a full stomach.

Going to go eat then lay down and sleep and be sick.

Anxiously Awaiting

I'm getting anxious, waiting for my next shot. I know how I am going to feel and I know I am going to get sick (Hate It) and I am not looking forward to it. I have sometime before that happens though. I am doing what I planned on doing. In a short bit here, I will be going to the hockey game, then to my meeting, then spencers' parents. Then back home here to get sick. Oh well, after tonight I will have only 45 shots left to go!!!

My feelings right now: I'm tired, fatigued, and just ending from having a little tiny bit of nausea feeling.

SHOT DAY!!! 3 out of 48

Its my weekly injection day. I have my labs to go to at 8 am this morning. I learned from last week, that I am going to take my shot tonight before I go to bed. It hits me hard about an hour after I take it. Then I am down for the count for a couple days. If I do my shot at night then I can sleep through some of the side effect. I want to make it to my meeting tonight as well as Drive spencer home to eden prairie. These are important to me, and If I do my shot anytime during the day, I will miss out on those things. I also am going to go see my friends son play a hockey game at 5- 6pm. This is very important to him, as well as to myself, and I want to be there for him. I promised him.

So, I plan on going to the game, then to my meeting, then drive spencer home to his moms. After I come back from his moms' I will come home here and take my shot.

How am I feeling this morning? I have a yucky feeling in my chest, I am tired, and I feel an onset of a cold coming on. I hope that I don't get even sicker having a cold on top of my shot. I won't be able to tell because I will be so sick as it is.

I'm adjusting to not being able to go do things on certain days. I got invited to go watch the minnesota wild play this saturday. I can't. I will be sick, and this is hard to accept. I have to let go and admit that i am powerless and move on. And I do accept, and I am moving on, but there is alot of "No, I will not be able to do this or that" because I will be sick on those days talking that I am having to say to people. It's nice to get invited, but it sucks turning people down. Powerless over the medication and the side effects, but I am learning to work around them. And i thank all of you for your understanding. But understand this is a long treatment, so there will be a lot of understanding.