Wouldn't you know it!?

Can you believe this? of course, I am still tired. but that seems to be the worst of the side effects for right now. I woke up about an hour ago and have eaten something and drank some water.I am about to watch a couple shows then meander myself back into my dreams. This medication has given me the weirdest most vivid dreams. But I atleast I got to have sex, if only in my dreams...

Another Tiring headline (YAWN)

7:42pm

This is not so special of a post that I am writing. I just am here to say I am tired. But it sure is nice to be sleeping through some of the effects. I think I am going to go do something now. Hmm, what should I do? I think I Will go back to bed and work on some sleeping.

Note: take next shot later in the day.

4:33pm

I feel a little nausea, very sleepy. i have a little pounding in the head. very sleepy. I am missing my meeting tonight. It's better not to go than to go and have everyone come up to me and ask me how I'm feeling. I can't muster any words right now, i just don't have the enrgy to do so. I feel tired and I am tired.Plus, I don't think I could make it through the meeting.

Next week I will take the shot later in the day. My friends son is having a hockey game next week and he invited me to come watch him. I promised him I would. So now that I know how i feel after a shot, I will take it after I go watch him play and after my friday meeting.

Well, there is one good thing about me feeling like crap. I know I did the injection right and that the interferon is battling up and killing!!

Tired - and feeling the poison

Its only been half an hour and I am feeling the effects of the shot. I am getting pretty tired and I am getting a feeling of nausea overcome my body. I think I am going to try to get a llittle rest.

10:00am (injection shot taken)

It was my first time doing my injection of the interferon today. I just got done. Let me tell you I do not like that at all. No, I'm not scared of needles, I wish. What I am is a recovering needle junkie who has 45 months sober today and what am I doing with myself. I am using needles. When I was using, I lived my life around needles, I breathed and slept needles. Now when I finally get into sobriety, I know what I need to do to stay sober and that is not only change my friends and my places I hung out with, but I have changed my whole thinking. And having these needles in my presence has been not easy. I am trying to have a different outlook on it, but my mind keeps going back to those times that I used shooting up. For Gods Sake, I have needles sitting in my refrigerator, and I just got done giving myself an injection. Push the plunger to its proper dosage, stick it in your skin and push the plunger in. That is what I used to fucking do every fucking day, And now I am doing it again.

Whew!! I really needed to get that off my chest. I feel better now. I know why I am doing this and I will be alright. There is nothing that will take me back to using again, but it sure frustrates me sometimes.

Peek A Boo - And a Good Morning To You

Last night I got to sleep okay, but then awoke at 2am and couldn't get back to sleep. I tried, but that made it worse, so now it is 6:15am and I am going to go on with my day. I'm feeling nervous about when to do my shot. I don't want to do it too early, because then I will miss my meeting tonight. I don't want to wait too long, because mainly I just want to get it over with. I have my first lab test this morning. I will go to the doctor and just get some blood drawn. They will be recording and watching my viral load levels (the amount of the virus I have in my blood) and making sure my platelletes and white blood count doesn't go too low. I need to go in when my levels will be at there highest and that is right before I take my next injection. I have to go in weekly for lab tests I think for the first month then it goes down to once a month. Atleast it gives me something to do, right? Who else can say they woke up this morning and got poked by a nurse?