Kitty in a Hurricane

I've got a dull pain in my upper left shoulder blade. My body feels sick and yucky. I'm sleeping now sporatically. Never longer than an hour and a half. But other than that I feel okay. This is a long term feeling that I expect to be feeling. So its no surprise to me.

If I keep drinking water, it does miracles. I do find though that I am not really that thirsty, So I can forget to drink my share of water.And also, I would rather just fall back asleep. But, If I don't drink anything I start to feel worse. So on my menu for today is lots of water and here and there tylenol. Sounds like That would be a good brand name for Tylenol. "Here And There"

I find that the day or so after my shot, I get a strong lingering obsessive urging crave for sweets. Boy could I raid "Candyland" right now.

I also begin to type something and I forget totally what I was going to say. All I can remember is that it was something important I wanted to write. And knowing that drives me crazy. I have the thought, type 3 words and like a Kitty cat in a hurricane, it floats away to go "Meow, Meow" in another town. I started this blog to record my thoughts, but what do you do when your thoughts disappear like a shadow in the wind.

All I can do is go with the flow. I learned when I get this way that when I start to become forgetful, I just need to do Hypnotic Non- brain Activites. Hmmm I know something that will paralyze my brain and that doesn't invlove thinking until I can remember again.

Oh shit!!!
Now I forgot.

There goes that cat , can you hear it, Its in the other town.

"Meow" "Meow"

Let go and let god.

Time for a Movie!!

Taking my shot just before I went out for the night was a great Idea. I was able to go about my evening, do what I wanted to do and needed to do, and now after my night is at its end, I am feeling the shot begin its effects. My back is aching and my body is beginning to feel yuck, but I am so tired from the rest of the day, that soon I should be able to pass out fairly quick. who Knows what the rest of the next couple of days have in store for me, all I know is that today I feel good. Not so much physically, but mentally.

I feel a rush of warm fuzzies from taking action and just going with my gut on doing my shot when I did. I was hesitant, what if I started to feel bad. Well thats the beauty of it all, I have friends that would of helped me out if things got bad. If I would of started to really feel sick then I have a few friends that would of helped me get spencer home, and get me home. All I would of needed to do next was get past "Myself" and humble myself for the help.

I was starting to get shaky and the sweats during my meetings tonight, but I held on. I was getting kind of irritated at small things, but I held on. There was some moments that I had a hard time concentrating and understanding what others were trying to tell me. But I held on. and I jsut flowed with the night like a feather in a soft windy breeze. And now I am at home, safe and ready to take a couple tylenol to rid these aches, drink lots of water to liquify my body, and pull up a big piece of my blanky and snuggle deep into its warmth....

I better get going now, I am very sore around the shoulders. They feel really tight so I better stop typing. Its not smart to over do it.