I Just Have To

Before I started this beautiful journey, I was told by my Nurse that I will have my dragging, not want to do anything, just completely exhausted, drowning in fatigue days. She said that I'm just not going to want to do anything. She said some days it will feel like A cement truck will have backed up to my house and filled my body and soul with wet concrete. She said it would be hard, very hard to go on somedays, but I just had to. I just had to. I just had to.

And so I am...

I went into my humble room and laid beneath the blankets. I took the time to lay my head down and say hello to my friendly pillow. I sat back and laid back and then thought about what my nurse had said. And so I got up, and turned the lights on and now I'm doing something. I'm moving around, getting somethings done, getting my heart to beat. I'm moving around, and making some sounds, I'm not going to feel even a little bit down.

And so I am going on with my day. Why? Because this is one of those days. So I just have to, I just have to, I just have to....

Bring your body and your mind will follow. And I'm not letting my mind go just yet.